why this happen to me????

• time : 3.12PM
• date : 21.02.2010

b cyg wndu sgt3 kt b...
b cyg nk jupe b...
tp b xnk jupe cyg..
b xgtau sbb pun...
dlu b jnji bler kte stdy sme2 kte slalu leh jupe...
slalu leh mkn sme...
slalu leh blik sme2...
g klas sme2 nek bas...
tp cyg xpnah g klas nek bas ngn b....
tp pas b ada mtor...
b lupe jnji b...
nk jupe kt kolej sush...
cyg call nk srap sme tp b still tido...
nk g las sme tp b bgn lmbt...
nk lunch ngn b sush, b sush nk tggu cyg wlau 5 mint jerk...
bler da abis klas b trus ckp nk blik hostel...
xsempt nk ckp pe...
b nk lunch kt hostel...
abis cyg cm ner???
gap 2-4 jam cyg xtau nk wt pe...
aja ngn farah jerk...
cyg kdg2 terpinggir dgn dorg...
cyg sunyi sgt3...
tp b xtau.. b tgk cyg slalu ktawe kn...
tp dlm ati nie tiap2 ari nangis...
sb b tue cyg nk b...
nk b sntiase ada ngn cyg...
biar cyg x snyi...
tp smua tue xkn dpt...
cyg tau...
pas nie abi n umi nk pndah...
so kte mkin jauh t...
mybe kte xkn jd rpat cm dlu ag kn...
cyg tkut nk gtau b...
t b trase....
b npe b wt cyg cm nie??
b x syg kt cyg da ker???
b npe b x pnah wt cyg pnting pd b??
npe b byk rhsia dr cyg???
b cyg sdih sgt3 b wt cyg cm nie...
b cyg nk b blik...
tp npe b len skang???
b syg cyg x sbnrnyer???
ke b da jupe pompuan len???
b tell me the truth!!!!
i want xplanation....